So confused lately...@@

haih..i am so confused lately@@.. dont noe what should i do and wheather what i did was right or wrong...all this decision's made is it right ?? did i follow my heart?? >.< ..is this relationship gonna last..?? i myself also dont noe..i dont noe how should i answer this question...u said u wish me happy, is this what u truly want? i guese i dont have any choice right now.. i am not pschic and i cant see the future so i cant predict what is gonna happen next...right now i am still thinking wats my next move??? day by day hoping that u would return but i dont think its possible anymore right?? hmmm if u would return than maybe its miracle than...sigh

沒有玉娟的日子- 第11天

hmm... 已經十一天了我 們沒聯絡了...
一 轉眼, 十一天就過去, 時間過得還真快...
但是在我心里, 總覺得這十一天以來過得很慢,
我真的很希望時間能過得快一點...
因為我決定要把你給忘記...
我想把我們的一切都忘了...

這6個月以來... 你給了我很多很多的美好回憶... 很多甜蜜的時刻...
我真的很想念那些日子...
這6個月... 我真的用心良苦的追你... 但是你每一次都令我失望... 一次一次的拒絕我... 我真的很想知道為什么... 為什么你就不能接收我??
難道我對你做錯了什么嗎?
還是我以前有什么給你不好的影像??
你就不能接收我的愛一 次嗎?
我真的真的很想和你在一起..
你每次對我說你這不好那個不好...
我覺得你錯了... 對我來說, 你是在這世界上, 我遇見和相處過的最好的女子..
我多么的希望我們能在一起.... 但是你選擇了要一個人...
還是你已經愛上了另一個人?
看來 我的夢想是不可能成真了吧?

我心里還有許多 活想告訴你, 很多事想讓你知道,
但是看來這一些對你已經不重要了吧?
看來我的存在對你已經不重要了吧?
每一晚我許的愿望是不會正真了...
我還記得你對我說你的夢想你將來你 想當個空姐, 想當個空姐學業一定要很好吧...要是你已經決定了,我成群你!!! 好好的努力往前走吧!!
我永遠都支持着你!!
黃玉娟你一定要好好的努力哦!!!!!
黃玉娟你一定要好好的活下去!!!!
也許將來你會找到一位比我還好的人...


這幾個晚上, 我都看着月亮... 想這你... 想這你的笑容... 想這你.. 對我說話的語氣...
我真的真的很想念你...
我很希望你可以一直配在我的身邊...

你不是真正的快乐

人群中哭着
你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会
梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了
你已经决定了

你静静忍着
紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜
就是越伤人了
越是在手心留下
密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了
於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则
不是你的选择
於是你含着眼泪
飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的癒合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
然後才後悔着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的癒合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下
你穿的保护色
为什麽失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

Your Choice..

hmm..well i dont think there is anything left for me to say anymore...In the end , the ending is still the same after all...nothing have change , maybe this is just my faith after all ,from the beggining everything have already been set...maybe u deserves to be with someone better than me after all..i am not good enough for u..If your reason is because of Spm and exams than i wish u good luck and hope that u will do the best in your exams...The moment u said NO , my heart sink and i think this is first time i have ever felt so sad before...well u have already made your choice i dont think there is anything i can do to change it, hope that u will find someone much more better than me 1 day...Wish u all the best!!!!

Shattered Pieces..

Inside my sleeve, I pull out my heart,
handing it to you, "careful it's fragile,
and easily falls apart."Extending your arms, you take the heart in
your tender warm hands.It falls into a million shattered pieces on the floor it lands.
You begin to bend down to pick it up, sorrow and sadness in your eyes.
Apologies are not enough.Looking at you with tears in my eyes,
I ask you not to pick up the pieces of a heartthat has fallen apart.
I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart.
one by one, piece by piece.I need to put it together again, some how. some way.
Each piece of my heart has a memory so true.Each piece of my heart has part of you.
You are the one who is leaving to start a new lease on life.
I'll just be here on my knees picking up the pieces of a heart that feels like it's being pierced with a knife.All my tears won't keep you near..
All my tears won't mend what's not here.
Again I look at you with a whisper in my voice,
The only way my heart will mend and finally be complete,
is if you and I can come together without being discreet.
You see, what we have here and today, helps me face the world, with a love for you that gives a glow...but now, my baby, you made a choice.My heart is on this floor, shattered and broke.
With each piece I pick up ...I need to learn to let go.