Mood swing..hmm dont noe why today my mood suddenly chg..haih...dont think so much ba, maybe tomoro will feel better a bit..

Broken Dreams =(

I love you more than life itself,
But I am afraid to love,
My heart is like the fragile wings,
Of a tiny little dove.

I'm scared to get too close,
I feel that I can't win,
You'll love me for a little while,
Then you'll set me free again.

I've lived so long on hopes and dreams,
I don't know what to do,
I don't think I can trust my heart,
For it belongs to you.

I know you'll only hurt me,
Yet, I still keep running back,
Between the paths of our hearts,
There's a worn and beaten track.

You've got my heart held on a string,
It is breaking right in two,
Enough belongs to me -to hurt- ,
The rest belongs to you.

I know that somewhere in your heart,
There is a place for me,
I just don't know how to find it,
And there's no way to make you see.

I can only hope that someday ,
You'll wake up and you'll find,
That while my heart belongs to yours,
Yours, too, belongs to mine.

Days Without You..

I miss you so much day and night,
I can't realise why you're gone,
I just think I treat you right,
but now I'm again alone.

The days without you are so long these days,
Without your kiss and smile,
And I don't know what I've done wrong,
I've been thinking of this for a while.

A few questions that I need to know ,
Why does my heart feel so bad ?
Why you could ever hurt me so ?
Why can't I get you out of my head ?

Now I'm standing here alone,
With this weight upon my heart,
Wondering why you're gone,
Remembering our feelings from the start.

In my mind I have all my memories in a range,
Each moment spent with you is unforgettable,
But I can't realise what made you change,
For me this is just un-get-able.

I know I won't pull trough without you by my side,
So baby come to me don't run and hide,
The only thing I want is to be with you,
Please baby make my wish come true.

Don't you know that you make my days count?
And I'm always happy when you're around,
But now that you have choose a different part,
And there is nothing i can do but to see you leaving,
Seeing you leaving our memories in the past...

It doesn't matter what we do
As long as I'm here with YOU

Drink Drank Drunk!!!! @@

lolx...haha..i think my cousin's dad and all my cousin's are like all crazy or should i said insane?? haha...erm..today we are like having lunch bout 12 something and my parents invited alot of frds and we all ate at a restaurant about 5 tables? haha thats alot of ppl...@@ all of us are like drinking drinking and drinking, i think i am gonna fall sick soon =( , cuz i am not really a drinking material in a simpler way to say is i cant drink...lolx...but nvm la happy ma, once in a year with so many frds , cousin's and also my grandparents..^^ erm...first we had the taiwan beer,thn we had red wine, and also some vodka...haha so many..Xp
haha finish our lunch bout 3.30 went home, i straight go sleep...hahah totally drunk...@@

Just You

You're the first thing I think of,
Each morning when I rise,
You're the last thing I think of,
When I close my eyes.

You're in each thought I have,
And every breath I take,
My feelings are growing stronger,
With every move you make.

You're an angel from above,
Who takes away my pain,
My love for you is so strong,
It's always just the same.

You're the miracle in my life,
Who can always make me smile,
Just knowing that you care,
Makes my life worth-while.

You are everything I want,
You're so pure and true,
I love you with everything I have,
And I love everything that you do.

More than words can say...

baby i cant use words to explain how much i love you, and how much i care about you...I felt lucky that i met you biii,when i'm down and i needed somone u will be there for me..when i'm sad u will always tell me jokes to make me laugh...haha...Thx Bii...i believe you are a gift from god to me, and i will treasure everymoment i spend wit you^^...Evendore we are fall apart,my love for you will never change...you will always gonna be the one in my heart...Love you so much biiii~!!!!

muacks!muacks~!!!

Haih..wont be online till back malaysia de...

haih..i wont be online or blogging of tomoro night onwards liow...cuz i will be going to other place with my parents and i wont be bringing my laptop...sobsob =( have to wait till i go back malaysia liow...ermm..there maybe a slightly change of date i going back to malaysia..maybe i am going back early going back on the 2nd feb or 3rd if got flight...hmm..hopefully i can go back early cuz i already so mny days didn go school...miss out so many classes dy...sob=(

Boom !! Boom !! Boom !!

Boom Boom Boom the sound of fire crackers the whole night..lolx..today is the day where everyone reunion and have a dinner all together...haha..I am starting to feel more like a family now, so many brothers , sisters , cousin..haha...grandparents were so happy to see all of us grown up already,erm i still remember what my grandparents keep telling me, they said i should study hard, cuz the money parents earn is not easy..haha..right now they are still telling me this @@...the whole night we had lots of fun together, playing all around with fire crackers..haha and my grandparents keep telling me to eat more!!! haha because i so skinny..i told them that i eat alot already but cannot grow fat dy, but i've grown much more taller each year..lolx..

Homeworks , Homeworks And Homeworks!!!!!

S*%T i just ask find out that i got so many HOMEWORKS to complete..Damn!! my add maths i already like miss 2 class and i havent started the book yet and now my friends are like already 30 pages ahead of me?? OMG!! somemore i dont understand anything bout add maths, so complicated@@..haih =( when i get back i am gonna have a hard time getting back on the track...nvm i've gotta work hard ,harder and harder!!! haha...next year i am so not gonna come back taiwan dy, i come back i dont think i can catch up dy next year..like what teacher say " Practise Makes Perfect"haha i really found that usefull...Gotta Work Hard!!! Xp

Morning Call??@@

haha last night i didnt really sleep well, and i also sleep quiet late...sleep around 12.30++?? and sleep half dy i like suddenly wake,like i am thinking bout something oni..haha..and i can already hear fire crackers early in the morning 4 something!!!! ..Wtf haha taiwan ppl so semangat new year...lolx...i dont think malaysia got like this gua? fire crackers early in the morning..Zzz than wake up dy nothing do so sien go miniclip play game...play till damn stress cuz cannot cross that particular level..LOLX
after a while i went back to bed agn...

Distance Wont Stop Me From Loving You...^^

baby i just want you to know that no matter how far apart we are from each other my love for you will never change,you asked me wheather if i am serious or not? ..baby i would tell you that every single word that i have said to you i mean it...Dont worry,i wont do anything that will hurt you cuz i will only love you...You will be safe around my arms biii^^
i will stay awake for you,i will be your guardian angel watch you over when you are asleep...Distance wont stop me from loving you, as long as we trust each other everything will be fine ..

love you lotz baby~ Xp
muacks!!

Yipee New Shoe!!!!

Yay today i bought a new basketball shoe..hahaha for basketball freaks out there i bought the Kevin Garnett Ts Bounce Commander Shoe!!! haha love it so much..erm...bought it bout 4300++ which is malaysia's 430++
haha gonna upload the pics soon~~lolx

New Year,New Hope

haha...yea i know its a new year agn, yesterday was like 2008 and today is like 2009 already !!!!! haha time passes so fast, i still remember when i first enter form 3 i was like F*%K this year i am gonna sit for PMR and thinking all bout PMR ..lolx..than now its all over already...haha time flies so fast..Alot of Sad and bad memories i had in 2008 and now is 2009! .Time for me to forget the pass and start a new life, like wat idioms says turn on a new leaf,thats wat i am doing now...^^
Letting go of the past and start a new day with no worries..Happy all the time is better than crying or sad..haha

Well thats all i am gonna say~
GoodBye 2008 !! Hello 2009 !!! XD

Cold And Silence =(

Without a word was how you left,
The silence kills my soul,
Cold from the hurt my heart will stay,
But my love for you I'll never let go,
So I'll die with hope of thinking you'll come back,
But love and trust was everything we ever lacked.

Goodbye was what you could have at least said,
Or maybe I'm just not worth those words,
Or was it fear of seeing tears,
Well if so i hope you know they fall in the shadow of my soul,
Were my conscience calls to your name.

In my gallery are pictures of you,
You'll find in my heart,
Were dreams are only dreams made to never come true,
Those wishes i made were all just fairytale,
But I'll always be dreaming dreaming of you,
Because baby it's you,
The one i plead for the one i bleed for,
The one i need to hold on,
Looks like i'm just a guy that hope so much but none of it is true...

Happy Chinese New Year To Everyone!!!!
Gong Xi Gong Xi!!!
Enjoy Collecting Ang Pau's XD

Secondhand Serenade RockZz!!!!! haha
So touched by their songs..T.T
XD

Secondhand Serenade - Awake

With every appearance by you, blinding my eyes,
I can hardly remember the last time I felt like I do.
You're an angel disguised.

And you're lying real still,
But your heart beat is fast just like mine.
And the movie's long over,
That's three that have passed, one more's fine.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

I'm trying real hard not to shake. I'm biting my tongue,
But I'm feeling alive and with every breathe that I take,
I feel like I've won. You're my key to survival.

And if it's a hero you want,
I can save you. Just stay here.
Your whispers are priceless.
Your breathe, it is dear. So please stay near.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

Say my name. I just want to hear you.
Say my name. So I know it's true.
You're changing me. You're changing me.
You showed me how to live.
So just say. So just say,

That you'll stay awake for me.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I don't wanna miss anything
.I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything

Cant SleepZz

hmm...tonight i dont think i can sleep at all?? haih...dont noe what am i thinking also...so many things i am thinking about right now...things that i cant solve,so many questions that i cant answer...So confused@@ ...haih...

I Have To Be Strong!!!

Haha wat comes around goes around...i think i finally believe it... you made your choice.. its written black and white so there is nothing i can do to change it,we cant be together already i think ??... i feel sad thats all ...haha...Dont really wanna think bout it so much already, the more i think the longer my blog will be..haha..This time i have to be strong and walk on!!! hehe where i fall is where i should stand up!!! XD

God Why?

hmm...recently so many things happen..dont noe how do i start and how do i end...Just that alot things bothering me, feeling very down..haih..but i guese wont be so long gua..so mny questions i keep questioning myself,i cant answer perhaps u can GOD...GOD why do u made us so close and we had a chance to be together but in the end u made me dissapoint? why do you let me down? why do u have to seperate us and let us back agn ? are you playing me or are you testing me? If you are testing me guese wat, i am giving up dy,i cant bear the pain inside my heart any longer...The wish that i made everynight is i hope that i will get a chance to be with her..but looks like u took it away from me, Now i feel that the distance of both of us is getting further and further maybe she will never return again..haih.. I no longer have faith on myself like i used to be like before...when i trust myself everything get ruin..hmm..GOD if i really dont deserves to be with her than i wished that she will always be happy and she will find someone much more better than me...Thats gonna be my last wish, if u wanna make me suffer i dont mind....Dont make her suffer, she deserves a much more better life than me... if u asked me why? the reason is simple...Cuz i only love her...

Secondhand Serenade - Stranger

Turn Around,
Turn Around and fix your eye in my direction,
So there is a connection,
I can't speak,
I can't make a sound to some,
How capture your attention,
I'm staring at perfection,
Take a look at me so you can see,
How beautiful you are.

You call me a stranger,
You say I'm a danger,
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight,
I'm broke and abandoned,
You are an angel,
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

I'm confident
But I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you,
I knew you could see right through me,
I saw my life flash right before my very eyes,
And I knew just what we'd turn into,
I was hoping that you could see,
Take a look at me so you can see.

You call me a stranger,
You say I'm a danger,
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight,
I'm broke and abandoned,
You are an angel,
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

You are an angel,
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

Take a look at me so you can see,
How beautiful you are.

Your beauty seems so far away,
I'd have to write a thousand songs to make you comprehend how Beautiful you are.

i know that I can't make you stay,
But I would give my final breathe to make you understand how beautiful you are,
Understand how beautiful you are.

You call me a stranger,
You say I'm a danger,
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight,
I'm broke and abandoned,
You are an angel,
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

You call me a stranger,
You say I'm a danger,
You call me a stranger.

Realise:

hmm...now i finally realise wat i really meant to you..haha..i thought i was more thn that but it was just a dream after all, its so easy to say i love you,but do you even mean it? i think not, i thought both of us might be happy together but you dont think so...maybe we just dont deserves to be with each other after all, i thought we got a chance to be more than a friend...hmm looks like i'am wrong agn..haha..now i realise that i cant trust my heart anymore,cuz NONE of it is true.Its always wat i wanted but not you ...This will be the last time i ever love someone so much i think...hmm...anyway thx for your love that u show me before,appreciate it very much..every happy and sad moment spent wit you i will cherish it... Hope u find someone better than me..Good Luck!!!

Damn Colder And Colder !!!

Aiks~~ getting colder and colder each day liow =( now morning is like 13 degree and at night is below 10!!! awfully insane..Zzz next year i am not coming back already...haha..Now already got flu, whats next? sick? haha i am ready...Mr sick give me your best shot!! hopefully my body can tahan Xp..time faster past la, i wanna go bac to my home sweet home...haha ...miss my bed, my toilet ,my friends , and the sound of basketball and volleyball....lolx

should wear more clothes!!! damn
Grr

Again and again i fail...

haih...currently there is nothing else for me to say anymore, what i want to say i have already said, if u cant appreciate wat i did for you..okay than i respect your decision,i wont ask u anymore...hmm thought about giving myself one last shot, as i dont believe i cant get you..haha..why am i so naive? so stubborn? i've always trust the decisions i made but this time...this one last time,i should let go already....After so many times i fail why do i even still insist to go on ? From now on i will not trust my decisions anymore,as i know none of them is right, and i think the hardest thing for me to do is letting u go...but this time i will...My friends told me,to give up but i still go on...haha...why am i so dumb?? haih..
when a guy loves a girl he will become eventually dumb...hmm
thx for giving me the answer..i respect your decision...Good luck!!!

Missing You So Much~!!

hmm..baby i could not explain to you how i feel right now,now is only the 7 days here and i am already missing u so much...every morning when i wake up i think bout u, thinking bout how are u today, hows your day at school? did anything happen to you or not..Just so worry bout u,evendore u told me that u are gonna be fine but i still worry bout u cuz i am not there with you...i dont know how will my days be without you..sob =(
everynight before i went to bed , i pray that you will be safe, happy and dont let anything bring your mood down..i've always wanted to see the you, in the sweet warm smile and laughter everyday...^^
dont be disapointed if u fail or anything kay? i believe that your friends wont blame you..everyone makes mistakes,just like me i've done so many things that have hurt you before and after you are gone,i regret...but now i learn from my mistakes ..i promise you baby that i wont repeat the same mistakes that i have done 4 years ago...I will be the one, who is loving you,caring you,always be there for you when you're down, and the angel that will be watching over you when you sleep at night...^^

Baby i miss you so much~!!!

Freaking Virus!!

Arghh!!! F&%K la my comp kena virus liow ....haih...didnt know that,that was virus thn i go click on it..thn comp kena virus liow...damn dulan...haih dont noe when oni i can online agn ,now i using cousin laptop online and blog oni..Now is oni 21 i still need to wait for another 14 more days oni i go back to malaysia..haih..=(

1st Day Didn't Go To School

hmm..obviously i wont be going to school for this whole week cuz,currently i am not at malaysia..lolx...hmm..today woke up kinda early,automatic wake up like as if i know that i should wake up..i thought that as if i'm still going to school..when i wake up i realise that i am not in my house. hmm wondering how is she doing in school today ? Is she okay ? Did anything happen to her ? haih so worry bout her...wished that i was there to watch her over...feel like as if i'm missing something, missing the other part of me, missing her smiles and laughter..

baby i miss u ~!!

Freezing!!

hmm...i am freezing to death!! sob =(
didn know that the temperature here would be so cold..Morning is like 16 degree and is already very cold and at night is below 10 degree's!!! what do you think?? ..hmm...i think i am gonna get sick soon...

baby i am feeling very cold,wished that u could be here wit me, cuz i wanna hug u...^^ baby i miss u so much~ another 17 more days oni i can see u..haih =(

Talk To Me And Let Me Know

Talk to me and let me know
When you think our friendship will grow.
It's hard for me to say how I feel
And to make you know my feelings are real.
Sometimes you act like you feel the same
But, other times, like it's just a game.

You confuse me with the way you act,
Many times, I don't know how to react.
My friends all see it from a different view,
They say I'm wasting my time with you.
I often start to feel the same way
But, I get a feeling, I should hold out one more day.

I hope to show my friends are wrong,
Do you think it will take very long?
If you would tell me how you feel,
Then I'd know if your feelings are real.
We have great times when we're together,
I hope it stays this way forever.

So, do you think our friendship will grow?
Do you think the wishes i made everynight will come true?
All i need is for you to trust me one last time baby...
If my wishes do come true pls let me know..

Being There For You

My love for you it will be forever,
I promised you to work out the problems together,
If you ever needs me I'll give it my all,
And work out the troubles be they big or small.

I'll hold you when you're down,
And from you're face ,
I'll take you frown,
I only wish to make you see,
I'll give you nothing but honesty.

My goal in life is to make you smile,
And as for that I'd walk more than a mile,
If you ever needs anything all you need do is ask,
Because I feel that's an easy task.

I really do love you so,
There is nowhere I wouldn't go,
I'd cross deserts and mountains and even the sea,
Because with you is where I should be.

When I'm with you there's nothing to say,
Except I promise to love you each and every day,
Nothing could be more important to do,
Than just being there for you ,
I just want you to know that
I am and will always be there for you Yoke Kien

Missing You so much Baby

Baby i miss u so much =(
barely even 1 day and i am already missing u so much...
I dont know how would my days be,without u by my side..
sobsob =(

Baby everyday,every hour, every minute and every seconds i'm missing you so much~!! wished that time can passed by fast,...

The Special Somone..

Some one has cast a spell on me,
I wonder and wonder, oh who could it be?
Someone makes my adrenaline pump and my heart race,
Every day this someone puts a smile on my face.
Someone has magically made me fall head over heels,
But sometimes I wonder how my someone feels.
This someone has conquered all my thoughts,
And hit me emotionally in all the right spots.
My wishes were granted when we first met,
She fills my days with happiness and delight,
She gives me a feeling I've never felt before,
Her great personality, is one thing I highly adore.
There's something in her that I can?t explain,
Her smile and laughter make me go insane.
My companion, my partner, my joy and very best friend,
The connection between us, is a circle that will never end.
I hope my someone knows how much she means to me,
I don?t know what else to do to make her see.
This someone is one of the greatest things in my world,
I'm so happy she's my girl and I'm his man.
I can't find words to express how I feel inside,
We tell each other anything, there's nothing to hide.
She swept me off my feet by just being true,
Now to be next to her is all I want to do.
Why do I want her in a way I can't express?
Why do I think she's the best of the best?
There are so many reasons I could go on and on,
Sunrise to sunset, dusk till dawn.
Who is this someone you ask?I'll tell you who,
Yoke Kien, my special someone is you

My Last and Final Goodbye

You'vealways loved him,
And now I can see,
That the one in your heart,
Was never me.
All of those times,
You held me close,
It was him that you needed,
And loved the most.
It's hard for me,
To swallow my pride,
Knowing that my love,
Was the love you denied.
When I see you with him,
I force a grin,
But really my heart,
Is breaking within.
My love for you,
Is stronger than ever,
But I know in my heart,
We'll never be together.
So I'm letting you go now,
With tears in my eyes,
I'm telling you my last
And final goodbye.

Love's A Game

Love, likea lick of candle's flame,burns all hearts in its wicked game.The inevitable games, when love begins,pride-blinded players, in a game no one wins.Is the lesson to learn from our mistakes? Or do we suffer enough with so many heartaches?Are tears that fall like so much rain,from the well of the souls of those who loved in vain?Those who try to smile when their hopes are fading,whose dreams have ebbed and a love waning.Never cry for what others have wrought, remember instead the love you've sought,for one day soon, the fates will align,there will be no epiphany, no signal, no sign.Love will happen, no matter your plan,like waves to the shore, caressing the sand,your heart holds the key, to the love you will find,as all things in life, it's a matter of time.Forget not, those painful tears of the past,remember and be fond of the loves you've had,because all of your life is a blink of time's eye,and of time, like love, you can never ask why.

Back To Taiwan...

hmm...this saturday on the 17th of January i am going back to my hometown..haha...hmm dont feel like going back at all...go back there oni visit my grandparents and some friends oni..so BORING...and i wont be attending the school for 1 whole week..which counted as ponteng..haha...have to ask my dad to write a letter to the school..my flight is on afternoon 3p.m..i will be going to the airport around 12 something..erm..dont noe wheather should i go for volleyball training or not...i think i wanna ask my dad to let me come bac earlier but the ticket already book so i think is a lil bit hard..i think i am gonna bring pendrive and safe dota in it so in taiwan i wont be that boring ad...at least get to ply wit my friends...hahaha

Surprise ??? I think not..

haha now is oni the 2nd week of school and our class got 3 new student 2 of them are guys and 1 of them is girl ...One of the Guy name is garreth and we call him LOBAK( which stands for carrot ) hahaha...and the other guy is fong yat seng and we call him Sin Kor..i call him the lion king...LOL =) ...and the girl name is Atiqah erm..dont think i spell it correctly...And guese what this new girl *LIKES* me!!! ZzZz thats what they all said ,but i think its not funny at all...hmmm cant even concentrate at class i can feel that she is always looking at me...WTF and he ask me wheather where i stay? and can she come to my house and do hw wit me...?? Zzz She Even ask me to make paper rose for her?? = . = ..she keeps calling me and says that she love me...hmmm....just want you to know that i will never ever gonna fall in love with other girl other than YOU
* Yoke Kien*

Sienzz

hmmm....so sienz at school right now i am having computer class and teacher allow us to use internet so i blog lo...hahax...hmm so sien la...nothing can do ,teacher dont let us to play dota,whoever plays dota teacher minus away our 30 merit...lolxx i dont even think i got so much merit also...if play dota than sure kena 1st warning letter liow de...@@ hmm our school came so mny new students mostly from the lower senior upper senior oni a few oni...hmm

there is something need to tell everyone on my next blog..
something very shocked ...haha

thats all for now....chiowZz
=)

PC Spoil

hmm....pc spoil already when done fixing will be back blogging...